It was a year back when I decided to start wearing the Hijab and followed my religion with all my heart.
I come from a modern Muslim family, where Hijab is not practiced strictly. Something always pulled me towards the Hijab. Unfortunately, every time I tried to start wearing a Hijab, I wouldn’t continue wearing it for long.
My mind always fluctuated for I lived in a family where no one practiced the Hijab. Every time I would try to be a hijabi, I would fail to do so.
However, a year back I had made up my mind that it was either then or never. I excitedly went shopping and purchased an abaya with eagerness which soon shunned as my sister laughed at me and said “Its just a matter of few days that you’ll put this hijab on and soon you will get back to normal and won’t touch your hijab ever again.”
I wanted to prove my family wrong. Deep inside I knew what I wanted. I knew my choice of Hijab was to please my Lord. Thousands of questions hovered across my mind: “How am I going to face my college mates who have always seen me without the hijab?”, “What are they going to ask me?”, “How and what am I going to tell them?”
I struggled through, battled it out and made myself understand that the reason I’m starting the Hijab is for my Lord and HE is the one who will give me the strength to face everyone and give an answer to everyone’s “WHY?”.
I finally wore the Hijab and decided to go to college irrespective of what people would say, what they would think and what they would ask me. I suddenly felt like I was strong enough to face people. I suddenly felt my Lord was with me at every step I took towards my college.
There they were, some who failed to recognize me and some who greeted me with a warm welcome and said how much the Hijab suited me. Of course there were a million “WHYs” But eventually it all reduced. It was just a matter of one or two days that I had to face people’s questions, and after that it was all normal.
And since then, I proved my family wrong. I proved that I was capable of sticking to my words of being a Hijabi and so I was.
The Hijab made me feel beautiful from inside and outside as well. Stepping out of the darkness of disbelief into the light of Islam, I had finally achieved peace. Even though I get the wide gamut of strange stares, points and comments, this covering makes me feel honored, safe and cherished. Nothing bothers me anymore as long as I know I’m on the right path. Nothing can pull me out of my strong love for Hijab.
I’m sure there are many out there, who wish to start wearing the Hijab but are probably unable to, for whatsoever reason it may be. However, my dear non hijabis who wish to become hijabis, always remember, when you take a step forward in doing something for the sake of Allah, HE will be your strength at every step. Nothing should stop you or deviate you from the right track.